On 22 February 2013.. After the CNY Concert.. Brought all the malai zai went to drink.. I drank 3 bottles of tiger, one chivas, and a cup of 4 mixed liquor with fire. After drank it.. Felt the whole mind was spinning.  I shouldn't be like that. But? what to do? After drunk at 2am whatassap with Eunice. And she told me don't think so much. I have no idea what does it means. Does it means ask me don't think of her so much? or does it means she still love me and not to think so much. I have no idea and forever would not get the answer.

She told me her ex-bf was treating her well now.. And i know that this girl has no feeling on me anymore. I was being lied. What did i do? and you wanna to treat me like this? Only the god knows. I was lost for the past few days. and luckily my ex-gf Joyce whom in UK she accompanied me and with me whatassap.

God!!! why everytime when i started to be committed and you are wanting to take her away from me? If she couldn't forget her ex. You should not call me dear and said should not leave you!!! You know i am the type of serious man person. How come you wanna to treat a person who did love you like this? It going to make me lost confident on girls!!!!!!! Don't you know that betraying again and again will totally break a man heart???

We met up less than 3 months and you now totally treated me as a stranger! God! You are so cruel!!! God I doubt you exist and bless me! God!!! What the hell did I do wrongly and you again and again punish me??? God!!! When are you going to let me go and let me found the one that really cares about me and love on me and wouldn't leave me!!!!!!!!

I am damn boring looking at my staffs workers.. All are Malays and jealousy here and there!!! All words cant be trusted and I hate it so so much!!!!!

当一个人无法用任何言语来形容他的情绪时，不是他不懂得形容而是已经感受不到那情绪，情感牵动着他的感觉。
当一个人对他的周围，人，事，物毫无感觉时，不是他自私不想去理。而是在他内心深处他已死了一半。
当一个人狠下心来做某个决定，不是他变强了。而是崩溃前的最后坚强
希望从中能找回迷失方向的路。
当一个人再也不渴望任何人，事，物时。是他最想要拥有一切的时候。
我们人不就是那么矛盾的吗？

理智或不理智

开心或难过

爱与不爱

恨与不恨

拿的起放的下，又突然想不通

我现在对心里的空虚有种领悟。原来自己心里的空虚是没有人，事，物能填补的。而只能随着年龄的成长而明白什么叫付出。因为有了心里的空虚，不希望别人和我一样，而愿意为别人无条件付出。